“I resolved to finally have a photo session of my own.
I decided that it was time to “walk the talk”. I was always talking about showing up and being seen but I was also the one that was hiding in plain sight.
The night before my session, I panicked. I felt super overwhelmed, anxious, scared, and vulnerable. I tried to cancel, but that was not an option.
I tried to make sense of my feelings of vulnerability so I could understand why showing up felt so yucky. Why couldn’t I just wave a magic wand and make my anxiety disappear in a puff of smoke? It bugged me, but it made me truly understand the courage and strength the women I work with possess. I see women every day who boldly step through their own fears to start their own business, to get up on stage to speak and find their voice, to have the courage to get in front of the camera like so many have done with me.
And although women have always shared their vulnerability and fears with me before they get in front of my camera, I never truly understood it until I was the one being photographed. Being the photographer on the other side of the lens is a much safer place. Yes, I was empathetic to their feelings, but I never really got it until the day I did it myself.
Vulnerability is a place I don’t like to go. It’s a dark space that requires major trust, and love, and empathy of SELF. Oddly enough, I am amazing at creating a safe space for my clients during a photo shoot. What I had to learn to do was to create the same safe space for myself.”
That excerpt was written by me almost 5 years ago.
And it was eye opening.
Empathy of SELF. Trust in SELF. Love of SELF.
Little did I know that back then, I was already setting the foundation of my own future work that I needed to do in order to feel safe and strong again. And little did I know that it was an intention I was setting of the type of woman I would manifest and be lucky enough to work with all the time.
And now, I am happy to say, that I have had the honor of working with so many amazing women who are doing the same work in their own, beautiful ways. Women who have blown me away by their honesty, vulnerability and superpowers.
The conversations and understanding we have of one another are immediate. And we are empathetic to each other because we know that we are all rising together and with each other. And we are doing it vulnerable, strong, with excitement or fear or both, with gratitude and holding each other up at all times. That is the magic.
All of these experiences have taught me to embrace my own superpower that is vulnerability, give myself grace at times when it feels dark, and unapologetically celebrate all the light and joy every day. And each time I do, I discover a resiliency and strength that I didn’t know I had but I now know I am so capable of.
I have come to understand that you can’t escape vulnerability; you must take the risk and embrace vulnerability. It is what has made me stronger. More human. More capable.
Today, almost 5 years later, I look at that heavy armor laying on the ground not weighing me down anymore.
And I feel free.
And I am finding slowly but surely that my true self is shining through.
And I’m not apologizing for it. I want more. I want others to see the bright light that is me.
I want to own my superpower. I am ready.
And I want to help you do the same.
Are you ready?