The Power of a Single Bloom

The Power of a Single Bloom

Today I was loving on my orchid that I never thought would come back to life and smiled because it is blooming so naturally and beautifully.

And as I admired it more, I realized that in the past day or two, that I, too, am that orchid as I have gone through my own blooming phase slowly and then suddenly.

Meditation and deep work on self compassion and trust and embracing a new future that is full of exponential potential instead of allowing the past to interrupt my new road along with powerful and thoughtful conversations recently have allowed me to realize that I need to honor voice again.

This voice is three-fold ...

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Let's celebrate ALL the things!

Let's celebrate ALL the things!

Once a while back, I decided to give mySELF a little bouquet of flowers after a good friend told me I was "a gem of a woman".

It was what I needed in the moment and it felt so good to hear it.

And so I decided to buy the flowers and celebrate that feeling.

I rarely if ever, give myself props for being kind and generous and cheerleader to those around me.

When I saw the flowers, they said to me that it's (more than) ok to celebrate me sometimes. It's also ok when not everyone sees it or appreciates it and as long as I see it in me, that's what matters.

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Vulnerability is a Superpower

Vulnerability is a Superpower

“I resolved to finally have a photo session of my own.

I decided that it was time to “walk the talk”. I was always talking about showing up and being seen but I was also the one that was hiding in plain sight.

The night before my session, I panicked. I felt super overwhelmed, anxious, scared, and vulnerable. I tried to cancel, but that was not an option.

I tried to make sense of my feelings of vulnerability so I could understand why showing up felt so yucky. Why couldn’t I just wave a magic wand and make my anxiety disappear in a puff of smoke? It bugged me, but it made me truly understand the courage and strength the women I work with possess. I see women every day who boldly step through their own fears to start their own business, to get up on stage to speak and find their voice, to have the courage to get in front of the camera like so many have done with me.

And although women have always shared their vulnerability and fears with me before they get in front of my camera, I never truly understood it until I was the one being photographed. Being the photographer on the other side of the lens is a much safer place. Yes, I was empathetic to their feelings, but I never really got it until the day I did it myself.

Vulnerability is a place I don’t like to go. It’s a dark space that requires major trust, and love, and empathy of SELF. Oddly enough, I am amazing at creating a safe space for my clients during a photo shoot. What I had to learn to do was to create the same safe space for myself.”

That excerpt was written by me almost 5 years ago.

And it was eye opening.

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'This is me at 40!'

'This is me at 40!'

When I got a call from Andie late last summer, I was so excited! I remember thinking after we got off the phone, OMG, I want MORE of THIS kind of awesome, badass woman as my client!”

She was turning 40 in December and wanted to celebrate herself as she worked towards self-acceptance and confidence. She decided that she wanted two sessions - a ‘Celebrate You!’ and a ‘Natural Light Nudes’ photo experience and so we worked to make that happen!

We didn’t get a chance to meet for another few weeks but talked several times in between and so when I did finally see her in person, it was as if I knew this woman all along. And what I knew of her long distance was in fact, more than true in real life!

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That was then, this is now.

That was then, this is now.

I was never the scientist or the doctor. I was drawn to music, writing, dance & happiness. I loved all of these because they were simply FUN and FREEING!!

Over the years I forgot about those words ... they rarely entered my vocabulary & when they did, the feeling was fleeting. I thought that was normal & so I just accepted that life was hard & sometimes very sad and painful. It had been my normal for 30 years so what was another 30 more?

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