The next thing I hear is Karmen running towards me and yelling “OH MY GAWDDDD!!!! THIS is why I come from New York to work with you!!! YOU are the ONLY one who can get me out of my skin, dancing, being silly and allow me to SHOW UP as I am!! I wouldn’t do this for anyone else … just for YOU Rupa!!”Read More
This morning I had a cup of coffee with a very good friend of mine shortly after texting my coach about how I so wanted and needed and was ready to shift out of my old paradigm… I am so done with it!
During the coffee, Melinda and I talked about how I felt so “stuck” in my business ... just chasing money and goals (which I totally understand are necessary and yet when out of alignment, they don’t come out without it all feeling so uphill!) and it all felt out of whack. It wasn’t like I didn’t like what I do.. I love it! It felt like doing it w heart wasn’t coming to fruition lately.Read More
“I resolved to finally have a photo session of my own.
I decided that it was time to “walk the talk”. I was always talking about showing up and being seen but I was also the one that was hiding in plain sight.
The night before my session, I panicked. I felt super overwhelmed, anxious, scared, and vulnerable. I tried to cancel, but that was not an option.
I tried to make sense of my feelings of vulnerability so I could understand why showing up felt so yucky. Why couldn’t I just wave a magic wand and make my anxiety disappear in a puff of smoke? It bugged me, but it made me truly understand the courage and strength the women I work with possess. I see women every day who boldly step through their own fears to start their own business, to get up on stage to speak and find their voice, to have the courage to get in front of the camera like so many have done with me.
And although women have always shared their vulnerability and fears with me before they get in front of my camera, I never truly understood it until I was the one being photographed. Being the photographer on the other side of the lens is a much safer place. Yes, I was empathetic to their feelings, but I never really got it until the day I did it myself.
Vulnerability is a place I don’t like to go. It’s a dark space that requires major trust, and love, and empathy of SELF. Oddly enough, I am amazing at creating a safe space for my clients during a photo shoot. What I had to learn to do was to create the same safe space for myself.”
That excerpt was written by me almost 5 years ago.
And it was eye opening.Read More
When I got a call from Andie late last summer, I was so excited! I remember thinking after we got off the phone, OMG, I want MORE of THIS kind of awesome, badass woman as my client!”
She was turning 40 in December and wanted to celebrate herself as she worked towards self-acceptance and confidence. She decided that she wanted two sessions - a ‘Celebrate You!’ and a ‘Natural Light Nudes’ photo experience and so we worked to make that happen!
We didn’t get a chance to meet for another few weeks but talked several times in between and so when I did finally see her in person, it was as if I knew this woman all along. And what I knew of her long distance was in fact, more than true in real life!Read More
To be honest with you, my mind is a bit blank right now. I am pretty sure yours might be, too. It’s the end of the year, that time “in between” where we barely know what day it is and some of us are just catching up on sleep and dreaming of what the New Year holds and catching up on more sleep. Oh, wait, maybe that’s just me! :)
All in all though, I must admit that it has been a good holiday week. I didn’t just survive, I thrived my very first holiday by myself…Read More
A month after this dance series, I kept saying I didn’t feel well. A month later, I was having weird food episodes like body spasms and complete “back freeze up” and we finally realized it was probably from eating eggs. A month later I could barely walk after waking up with weird lines on my chest that we all joked were from aliens. I would work out crying to my trainer because I could barely lift a 1 lb weight without being exhausted for the rest of the day. My family was in town and all I wanted to do was sleep and sleep some more because I had nothing to give. My body was swollen and inflamed and in more pain than I probably even realized because…Read More
Do you look at this time of year as the time to ‘go, go, go’?! Or do you give yourself permission to slow down and recharge?
I’ve always felt like all the marketing for this time of year is all about planning big for the New Year and spending money on gifts and dinners and stuff that we really don’t hold any value on later and it was exhausting to be in that energy space.
So a few years ago, I made a conscious decision to walk away from that energy and…Read More
That was how the conversation with my therapist started yesterday. I told him the exploits of my past week and how I had to re-map my thinking to make the best out of what otherwise would have been massive stress and anxiety years ago.
I had shared with him my story of how last week had been hell on wheels. But through it, it was also a gift to learn how to receive. It had to do with fur babies and the Universe handing down what I needed to walk away with and it is actually pretty awesome!Read More
You know by now that I LOVe watching women show up and feel beautiful and confident in their skin! It is so much of what I do as a photographer and you would think that after all the women that I have worked with, that it would be something I do for myself as well right?
And, to be honest, it is now finally something I have gotten better at -- I mean it only took 20+ years for me to get there! :) And it is a constant practice that requires patience and diligence and habit. It is a way of living for my physical body to be well and also for my mindset to stay strong.
But for a LONG time, I wasn’t exactly walking the talk and it occurred to me every time I would meet with a client. You see, back in the day…
We know your are 99% angel but what about that 1%?!
A little bit of sexy and a little bit of fun, an Angel Session doesn’t require any special prep at all! Just show up, sip on some champagne, and we’ll take care of the rest.Read More