The next thing I hear is Karmen running towards me and yelling “OH MY GAWDDDD!!!! THIS is why I come from New York to work with you!!! YOU are the ONLY one who can get me out of my skin, dancing, being silly and allow me to SHOW UP as I am!! I wouldn’t do this for anyone else … just for YOU Rupa!!”Read More
I met Darshana in 2017 as I was searching for peace and so desperately trying to get my intuition back! I know that sounds weird, but there so many parts of me that just thought I had “lost it” somwhere in the abyss that was my life at that point in time.
After my first session with her (I referred to her as a f’n wizard of magic!!) where she used deep Reiki and energy healing techniques with me, I honestly felt like I had resurfaced. I started manifesting my intentions and my body was feeling in alignment again for the first time in ages!Read More
This morning I had a cup of coffee with a very good friend of mine shortly after texting my coach about how I so wanted and needed and was ready to shift out of my old paradigm… I am so done with it!
During the coffee, Melinda and I talked about how I felt so “stuck” in my business ... just chasing money and goals (which I totally understand are necessary and yet when out of alignment, they don’t come out without it all feeling so uphill!) and it all felt out of whack. It wasn’t like I didn’t like what I do.. I love it! It felt like doing it w heart wasn’t coming to fruition lately.Read More
Today I was loving on my orchid that I never thought would come back to life and smiled because it is blooming so naturally and beautifully.
And as I admired it more, I realized that in the past day or two, that I, too, am that orchid as I have gone through my own blooming phase slowly and then suddenly.
Meditation and deep work on self compassion and trust and embracing a new future that is full of exponential potential instead of allowing the past to interrupt my new road along with powerful and thoughtful conversations recently have allowed me to realize that I need to honor voice again.
This voice is three-fold ...Read More
“I resolved to finally have a photo session of my own.
I decided that it was time to “walk the talk”. I was always talking about showing up and being seen but I was also the one that was hiding in plain sight.
The night before my session, I panicked. I felt super overwhelmed, anxious, scared, and vulnerable. I tried to cancel, but that was not an option.
I tried to make sense of my feelings of vulnerability so I could understand why showing up felt so yucky. Why couldn’t I just wave a magic wand and make my anxiety disappear in a puff of smoke? It bugged me, but it made me truly understand the courage and strength the women I work with possess. I see women every day who boldly step through their own fears to start their own business, to get up on stage to speak and find their voice, to have the courage to get in front of the camera like so many have done with me.
And although women have always shared their vulnerability and fears with me before they get in front of my camera, I never truly understood it until I was the one being photographed. Being the photographer on the other side of the lens is a much safer place. Yes, I was empathetic to their feelings, but I never really got it until the day I did it myself.
Vulnerability is a place I don’t like to go. It’s a dark space that requires major trust, and love, and empathy of SELF. Oddly enough, I am amazing at creating a safe space for my clients during a photo shoot. What I had to learn to do was to create the same safe space for myself.”
That excerpt was written by me almost 5 years ago.
And it was eye opening.Read More
When I got a call from Andie late last summer, I was so excited! I remember thinking after we got off the phone, OMG, I want MORE of THIS kind of awesome, badass woman as my client!”
She was turning 40 in December and wanted to celebrate herself as she worked towards self-acceptance and confidence. She decided that she wanted two sessions - a ‘Celebrate You!’ and a ‘Natural Light Nudes’ photo experience and so we worked to make that happen!
We didn’t get a chance to meet for another few weeks but talked several times in between and so when I did finally see her in person, it was as if I knew this woman all along. And what I knew of her long distance was in fact, more than true in real life!Read More
A month after this dance series, I kept saying I didn’t feel well. A month later, I was having weird food episodes like body spasms and complete “back freeze up” and we finally realized it was probably from eating eggs. A month later I could barely walk after waking up with weird lines on my chest that we all joked were from aliens. I would work out crying to my trainer because I could barely lift a 1 lb weight without being exhausted for the rest of the day. My family was in town and all I wanted to do was sleep and sleep some more because I had nothing to give. My body was swollen and inflamed and in more pain than I probably even realized because…Read More