Vulnerability is a Superpower

Vulnerability is a Superpower

“I resolved to finally have a photo session of my own.

I decided that it was time to “walk the talk”. I was always talking about showing up and being seen but I was also the one that was hiding in plain sight.

The night before my session, I panicked. I felt super overwhelmed, anxious, scared, and vulnerable. I tried to cancel, but that was not an option.

I tried to make sense of my feelings of vulnerability so I could understand why showing up felt so yucky. Why couldn’t I just wave a magic wand and make my anxiety disappear in a puff of smoke? It bugged me, but it made me truly understand the courage and strength the women I work with possess. I see women every day who boldly step through their own fears to start their own business, to get up on stage to speak and find their voice, to have the courage to get in front of the camera like so many have done with me.

And although women have always shared their vulnerability and fears with me before they get in front of my camera, I never truly understood it until I was the one being photographed. Being the photographer on the other side of the lens is a much safer place. Yes, I was empathetic to their feelings, but I never really got it until the day I did it myself.

Vulnerability is a place I don’t like to go. It’s a dark space that requires major trust, and love, and empathy of SELF. Oddly enough, I am amazing at creating a safe space for my clients during a photo shoot. What I had to learn to do was to create the same safe space for myself.”

That excerpt was written by me almost 5 years ago.

And it was eye opening.

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Receive in 2019

Receive in 2019

To be honest with you, my mind is a bit blank right now. I am pretty sure yours might be, too. It’s the end of the year, that time “in between” where we barely know what day it is and some of us are just catching up on sleep and dreaming of what the New Year holds and catching up on more sleep. Oh, wait, maybe that’s just me! :)

All in all though, I must admit that it has been a good holiday week. I didn’t just survive, I thrived my very first holiday by myself…

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Breakdown to Breakthrough

Breakdown to Breakthrough

A month after this dance series, I kept saying I didn’t feel well. A month later, I was having weird food episodes like body spasms and complete “back freeze up” and we finally realized it was probably from eating eggs. A month later I could barely walk after waking up with weird lines on my chest that we all joked were from aliens. I would work out crying to my trainer because I could barely lift a 1 lb weight without being exhausted for the rest of the day. My family was in town and all I wanted to do was sleep and sleep some more because I had nothing to give. My body was swollen and inflamed and in more pain than I probably even realized because…

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The gift I received in California.

The gift I received in California.

My post today was going to be about my adventure as I find myself at this ridiculously gorgeous resort in California celebrating my 52nd birthday along with my newly found singlehood and freedom!

I was gonna talk about how important it is to celebrate yourself (because that is the theme this month!), or how the (super cute) chef made my food specifically for my protocol and then came out to chat (aka flirt) with me for what seemed ages...

But then at dinner tonight, as I was finishing up, I met Deb and Scott.

Deb just leaned over and started chatting with me. And then for the next two hours, we all chatted about so much and I walked away so fulfilled and happy and realized that this was exactly what I needed this evening.

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I hired you because you aren't boudoir.

I hired you because you aren't boudoir.

Me: “I would love your thoughts on this...do you think I should change my name to Natural Light Boudoir?”

Client: “HELL NOOOO!!! Don’t you dare!!”

Me: “ummm….ok...why? Because you know, Boudoir SELLS! And it is taking a minute for women to get on board with Nudes and even a Celebrate You! Session...so I was just thinking…”

Client: “See the thing is Rupa, I hired you because you were NOT boudoir. I wanted to work with you because of the artwork you create in your Nudes and the joy you bring out in your women during your entrepreneur sessions. And so that is why I asked you if we could create something for me since I am not an entrepreneur, but I wanted a fun session to bring out who I am on camera!”

Me: “Oh, ok, wow. I get it. And I LOVE that!”

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A Clothes On/Clothes Off Situation

A Clothes On/Clothes Off Situation

Have you ever taken a moment to be clear about your business? Look at why certain things feel good and other things suck!? Recognize your unique gifts that you offer the world? Figure out what lights YOU the f*** up?

If you haven’t, I highly encourage you to do it!! You’ll be blown away by what you discover in the process!

These past few weeks have been have been an especially full of self discovery.  I’ve felt again like I was chasing my North Star and had no idea where it was!

And unbeknownst to me, however, that North Star? Well, it’s been with me, in me, and the most integral part of me the whole time!

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3 Exciting Things Happening Now

3 Exciting Things Happening Now

I am so excited to share with you all the awesome things happening over here at Woman Redefined!

It’s so good to be back after such a long personal break and I’m looking forward to lots of amazing photo shoots and meeting so many of you badass women!!

Here are 3 things that are happening right now that I want you to know about!

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