Recently, I received the BEST news ever: "Your test results are gorgeous!"
I don't ever think I have heard a doc use those words when it comes to test results and as they relate to me and my body, and I totally teared up but was also very proud of how far I have come!
We celebrated how far I have come on this emotional and physical journey of mine and I think I may still need to truly celebrate because that is a thing that I am still learning to FEEL...not easy for me!
For the past 10-15 years, I have felt horrible. Three years ago, I could barely walk and felt like garbage a good part of the time. The Hashimoto's, mold, EBV, and then Lyme had decided to wreak havoc on my body one at a time over and I just couldn't anymore. Life sucked on many other areas emotionally as well but I was just ignoring all of it and I was in a mental fog.
And then as I made the decision to leave the marriage and really started “clearing the clutter” from my brain, I decided that I had a choice. So last year, 6 months post divorce big decisions were made to really start healing mind, life and body.
I had a gut level feeling that I wanted to see this badass doc that I had been following for a while. She seemed to me straight up, no bs, and I just had this feeling that she held the key to my healing process.
So I booked an appointment and I haven't looked back. For over 8 months now, Stephanie Rimka, owner of Brain and Body Solutions with Dr. Stephanie Rimka, Atlanta, GA, has been working with me. She is a total badass, funny, brilliant, compassionate and she listened to me and GOT ME.
She is not only a magician when it comes to chiropractic but damn, if she isn't like a freakin' psychic (I tend to attract a LOT of that into my life ALL the time!) when it comes to what is happening in life and body. And so the healing began.
We did baby steps at the beginning and as I started feeling better, she encouraged me to go the route of a true 'clean up' in my food protocol as well. It was time to remove the disease and DIS-ease from my body.
And this, my friends, was the EPIC elimination diet. My body was reacting to so much and we didn't know what and I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. And so I trusted her and about a month after my first appointment with her, I started the carnivore protocol (September, 2018). After I left her office and after she asked me if I would please give it a chance. I went to the local butcher, got meat, opened up my fridge and packaged all the veggies and fruit and all else and gave them to my dog sitter.
I made the decision not to WAIT.
Minus a few hiccups ('cause who doesn't have those?) like a pack of GF cookies in one night over the sink (ok, I lie, it has happened a few times!) or a few sips of whiskey (ok, ummm, quite a few hot toddies over the holidays) and an occasional dip into chocolate (shhh...we know it is more than that but whatever), I kept on keeping on.
And I found that it is so very easy for me to eat out (a big ass bison at Ted's or a ribeye anywhere), and most importantly,I started feeling better. No more stomach aches, no more bloating, the aches and pains lessened over time, I started getting more clear in my thinking and I started feeling stronger! And the bonus was that I also started losing inflammation in big ways.
IN BIG WAYS! Since last August, I've lost around 40+ pounds and feel the best I have EVER felt! In both mind and body!! I am on the least amount of supplements I have ever been on and I am also religious about practicing my "deep level work" to get to the next phase of mind/body healing.
I was committed. To my health. To my mind. To my life.
And I honestly feel like I have Dr. Rimka to thank for that. AND my intuition that led me to her office that day in August when I knew I had made the decision to get better!
Now, I have seen the change. I am enjoying my life way more. I laugh way more. I can deal with my emotions more readily. I am growing.
Between the food change, life change, mindset work and self love and self care and so many other things, I started looking at my business differently, looked at myself differently and more lovingly and evidently it shows.
It is showing on the outside as everyone has been commenting lately (thank you!) and I love that!
But, ya'all the real change is going on at both levels evidently on the inside. When the tests that usually required 15-20 vials of blood (NOT EVEN KIDDING!!) came back with all kinds of yuck to tests that come back GORGEOUS and require a slight tweak on what I do daily like more breath work required -- ok, that is easy and we decided I'd do that every time my freakin' mindset alarm goes off on my phone (which is every f'n hour or so!) AND 2 supplements to get my levels to par.
So this is working ya'all. I'm going to keep sharing my story at all levels -- you let me know how much you want to know.
I didn't live this beautiful, lit up life that showed up on social media and I have been through the shit for years but I have also stepped outside of it and am finding myself more and more, each and every moment of every day. I am happy to share whatever you want.
The big secret I have been holding onto is that I want to start speaking more about my healing on all levels and possibly write a book that might inspire other women to do the work and become engaged in their own lives, like truly IN IT, not as bystanders so they can have ALL THE THINGS! And of course, amp up the photography so I can truly help women show up and shine!! More on all this soon! xoxo
But in the mean time -- yeah -- FUCKING GORGEOUS!!! My blood work that is …and all aspects of life as they are unfolding!
And honestly, what I have really adored is this strong woman has been teaching me to be the same from both a physical and personal perspective. At one of our appointments, she took the time to show and push me (in her own Detroit girl way!!) towards owning my power and who I was becoming. There was no option b. There was a lot of laughter and “witch doctor badassery” happening though and for that I am thankful.
And during these conversations, even though I felt resistance (my own issue), I admired her kindness and generosity and true desire to see me grow and be strong again.
And so I did the work and life changed!
Fast forward many months into this past spring - Stephanie came to me and asked me for a photo shoot so we could create her ‘Badass’ brand. And, as you can imagine, it was a blast!! And what I loved the most was this beautiful vulnerability and strength that she is able to show all at once.
And then recently, she also asked me to be on a Live FB video with her to share my own personal story. And I was honored to do so. It was wonderful — fun and education and lots of laughs!
You can check out the interview with Stephanie Rimka over at Dr. Rimka's Brain and Body Solutions!
And I was beyond flattered to share my health and self care journey since being diagnosed with everything from Hashimoto's 20+ years ago, to mold toxicity, EBV, leaky gut and Lyme Disease. It should be quite the conversation!
On the day before this video, part of me went inward (wanting to hide again) and said, "what can I share that will make a difference in other people's lives as they are also trying to heal? I don't even know what I've done!?" and the other part, my heart says, "go do it and change others lives with your story, your vulnerability and happiness and even sad moments.
Allow those emotions to show up and just be human because in the end, that is what everyone wants."
And so, in this past week of sadness and emotional exhaustion (between Bella having issues and just me wanting to hide), what I found was a gift. The Universe gave me a gift of CELEBRATION. A gift of learning HOW to celebrate myself and my wins. And the gift of sharing it with others who are on the same journey.
Of course, as I thought about that, I started crying again but this is the release that is evidently needed since I have a feeling that this journey of mine is about to expand and light up like never before!
Check out her page and join me there..I'd love to see familiar names come through the feed...and you may be surprised (or not) with what I will share as well. It's been a wild ride for sure!
At the absolute top of this post is a photo that Stephanie took almost 10 months ago when I went to her in pain. My intuition took me to her to start and it was the best thing I could have done.
And let me just say, this is so much more than just what you SEE - the heaviness/inflammation that I carried on my body -- it is more about what everyone seems to FEEL when they see me now. The lightness translates not just to my physical body but so much to the energy of who I am and have become.
I have fought the ownership of this "light" for a long, long time, some of it due to my own reservation and some of it from language I've heard for over 20-30 years saying that I was not that and how could I possibly BE it?! And more and more though, I AM seeing it and feeling it for myself and owning it.
I am recognizing that I am a 'good human' unlike what I heard for many years, knowing that I deserve ALL THE THINGS in life and I am also starting to give myself permission for all the emotions -- leaning into them. And with the help of my personal coach Mary Houston,
I am surpassing the boundaries that I had created and that the world had created on my behalf. No time for that anymore. It's time to trust that all is possible, even in the sadness, there is a glimmer-turned-expansive amount of hope and bright light always.
Touch base with me if you want to know more or reach out to Stephanie to join her 90—day program that starts on July 1st. It will change your life IF YOU LET IT!!