I promised myself years ago when I was asked by a client why I hadn’t had my own photo shoot done several years into my own business, that I would commit to one once a year for ME!
So guess what? It was THAT time this past week! AND this time I committed to a branding shoot which would allow me to have lotsa’ amazing images that I would be able use for the next few months to tell mine and my client’s stories and to also use for marketing and, oh yeah, potentially even selling a few products that I have in mind for Woman Redefined! Stay tuned ‘cause they are pretty cool and I’m working out details in the next few weeks!
SO…it was GO time for me!!! And listen, I gave public props to all the women who have done photo sessions for themselves, made the decision to show up and shine and truly see themselves by doing this work because it is badass, vulnerable exciting and terrifying all at the same time! 💖I felt all of the above all day that day!
It was so much fun and even though the shoot itself was a total blast and filled with laughter with my team and I know we have a ton of images that are going to make me scream on deciding finals, a lot of “stuff” came up, I won’t lie.
I actually realized that I was more nervous than I thought I’d be. Probably because I’m still working on embracing my “new body” that feels healthy, free and with no more dis-ease and so, of course, the deep stuff is going to come up. I think that is part of this beautiful process. And man, I was trying to embrace it like I encourage my women to do as well.
So let’s get to the heart of it shall we? The deeper, personal side of this story.
These things called photo shoots do so many things for us and I’m happy to say that this one allowed for deep, personal truths to show up and most importantly, made me feel seen as I shift from broken and lack to whole and abundant!
It also showed me why my clients laugh when I laugh ... no more apologizing for the laughter anymore!! The laughter is something I have never fully owned. I kind of always felt like it was too loud or obnoxious and then recently at a photo shoot for a client, she said, that is what made her laugh. Because my laugh was “all in” and that made her really feel seen and noticed.
Wow. So I thought about it when I saw myself laugh on video (above) and it brought this idea to me that what if it is possible that my laugh celebrates myself and other women? What if it is contagious and fun? And what if I just fucking OWN IT? So, that was a huge shift for me that day and into the next few days where I was quite introspective of what happens when you see yourself from the “outside in”.
That was a concept I wasn’t familiar with, at least not for me. As far as I was concerned, it is what I do for my clients but, of course, if we are really real about it, because of that, it is also probably what I crave for myself. More on that on a future post coming soon.
In the meantime, I am learning to celebrate and trying to have a party around all the goodness that this day brought.
A good friend wrote to me the day after this session and said, “And for you, I suspect the party is just getting started! …seems like an even longer and bigger party is just getting going for you — life, your work, everything!” I was confused when I got it because instead of just glowing in the light of it all, I had already started to worry about what I was going to do and whether it would work and how would I do and you know…the brain didn’t stop.
But then I stopped myself and decided to flip the story and embrace all the goodness and so I wrote back, “What a cool way of looking at it! I am celebrating — something I don’t do well but learning!” And I thanked her for believing in me and her support and I realized in that moment that much of this journey for me is also all about RECEIVING. Yet another post I will have to write because it is a process to receive and truly take it all in as I am learning right now, each and every day. And damn, it is hard on some days and yet so very necessary!
And I am sure more “stuff” is going to come up as I finalize my images and use them regularly. But I say ‘bring it on’ because this is the year for growth and love and #moreplease as I lean in and RECEIVE ALL THE THINGS!
Big hugs and thanks to Starr Petronella for the photos and teaching me how to dance while on camera 😄 and Marina Fisher Soto rocked it w makeup and hair as always (and my gorgeous eyes!!!) and the ability to sneak a comment or leg in that would make me laugh each time!!! 💖💖
Also big love to my daughter for letting me use her loft as my studio for the shoot AND for letting me borrow that gorgeous dress (that I fit into so perfectly now!!!) that may or may not still be in her closet! he he he
So if you’re ready to do this, dance it out, laugh, and really show up and shine this year, I want to hear from you! Let’s chat on where you want to be in a year and let’s create that visual story for you! Email me at email@example.com and let’s set up a call!
OH, btw, I was FEATURED recently!! My coach and friend, Angie Atkinson of Queenbeing.com interviewed me a few weeks ago and part one went live on Friday evening! I was filled with gratitude and love and so I am super excited to share with you! We talked about how I have been healing and starting to thrive after an emotionally abusive relationship of many years. Check it out HERE and let me know what you think!