I'd rather be imperfectly perfect, how about you?

I just wrote an Instagram post that is going live later this week and it says “If we can see ourselves a imperfectly perfect, life just shines so much brighter and becomes easier and we become whole again. It is then that we see ourselves as beautiful, kind and worthy of it all.”

Because trying to be perfect sucks and is too much work so I’d rather be imperfect at it and be happy and take care of myself in the best way that I can, how about you?

 Asked my photographer not to “squeeze” in my arms or tummy...learning to love my body as it is!

Asked my photographer not to “squeeze” in my arms or tummy...learning to love my body as it is!

So when I  woke up last Sunday feeling kinda yuck and bloated and angry at myself for having margaritas with friends the night before, I stopped myself and decided to take a minute and be ok with not being perfect.

I wanted to have fun, hang out with my girlfriends and have a good night. What was the point in me being angry? It wasn’t doing me any good and probably making me feel worse.

 I never used to love my smile and would hide my mouth (especially when I was young and had braces) but I (evidently) love to laugh and it was a pain in the ass too much work to hide it and I decided laughter and smiles were who I am so fuck it, show up and love it!

I never used to love my smile and would hide my mouth (especially when I was young and had braces) but I (evidently) love to laugh and it was a pain in the ass too much work to hide it and I decided laughter and smiles were who I am so fuck it, show up and love it!

And so I came out of my ‘default mode’ (aka blame to self) and decided (very quickly and I was proud of myself for this!) instead to go into the stillness and give my body love and accept it fully and allow for the fun in my life because I deserve that, too!

And what a different morning and day it turned out to be!!

 I always laugh when I put hats on evidently!

I always laugh when I put hats on evidently!

Starting to finally acknowledge those parts of my body that I know kick ass and make me the beautiful imperfectly perfect human that I am, well they are always get a little smooch from me nowadays!

 Because sometimes it is just so much fun to be silly!

Because sometimes it is just so much fun to be silly!

I’ve finally embraced the perfectly imperfect model...it’s taken a reallllly long time but I’m getting there. One (of many) other things I’m still working on is body love, acceptance and seeing my own bright shining light like I see in others. That is taking a long fucking minute but I’m working it out.

And so what does the girl (aka ME!) do that has all these deep issues but remains vulnerable and probably too open, who receives counseling, coaching, energy work and basically needs a whole fucking village to help her learn to be ok w her light?

She does her own photo shoot again! (And, no, not a @naturallightnudes session YET! ...that may be later this year! 😊)

Rupa -_0004.jpg

I decided to lean into what I am always talking about...when resistance is there, it means something is on the cusp and it’s not time to run or hide but to lean into the discomfort and pain cause that leads to the fucking magic.

Rupa -_0005.jpg

So here I am again working this shit out and trying to find my confidence and own my badassery and I’m doing it one step at a time. I’m going to encourage you to do the same.

What one step will you take to own your badass self, love your body, lean into the discomfort which leads you to the light?!

Share it with me below and let’s do it together! 💖

Xoxo

Rupa_Signature_Black (1).png
 

Images of me by the lovely Kate Belle Photography